I had a hard time sleeping last night and woke up early this morning. I was not only a bit tired from a lack of sleep, but from the game of hide and seek my mind was playing on me. Not the fun version I played as a child, but the adult version where I find a random thought and subconsciously seek out ways to make it much bigger and powerful than it really needs to be.
So, I got up and went for a drive. I ended up on the lake with a view of the sun rising behind a tree filled hills. I’m glad I forced myself up and out of the house, rather than going back under the covers to continue my negative obsessive thinking or completely dissociating by aimlessly searching through social media. Instead, listening to the birds give their morning calls, watching the ripples of the water flow towards the shore, and feeling the warmth of the sun peak over the lush, green hills allowed me to slow down my thinking and get a better grasp on my emotions.
The sun rises and falls. What it gives us during the day, it takes away at night. Life, in general, is a series of giving and taking; good and bad; light and dark. I can’t understand happiness without first experiencing sadness and vis versa. These lessons at times are hard and I will add even unwanted; but how am I to grow if I don’t experience both. How can I truly live with intent and purpose if I am continually keeping the blinds closed to hide myself from those more challenging and difficult experiences, choices, conversations I need to have, or uncomfortable feelings.
I am still learning how to respond to the ups and downs that I am experiencing. However, I have chosen to take this new chance at life to live as authentically as possible. To me, this means being vulnerable, letting go of wanting to be in control, and doing things way outside my comfort zone. Because of this, I must be open to experiencing the consequences that come with this genuine open-hearted lifestyle. I believe, for me, it’s the only way to develop the skills I will need to successfully navigate this unpredictable life. What I can share with you is this:
Anything that annoys you is teaching you patience. Anyone who abandons you is teaching you how to stand up on your own two feet. Anything that angers you is for teaching you forgiveness and compassion. Anything that has power over you is for teaching you how to take your power back. Anything you hate is for teaching you unconditional love. Anything you fear is for teaching you courage to overcome that fear. Anything you can’t control is for teaching you how to let go and trust the universe.
This is your “new you” wake up call.